𝕯𝖊𝖎𝖒𝖔𝖘 （ the dark urge ）

FEXTRALIFE | brief summary
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| CHARACTER SHEET

note: not sure any of these need nerfed...? maybe Illithid powers, but BG3 is pretty good about balanced abilities and he's only level 6, so halfway through power levels. happy to discuss! also anything described as giving a modifier has already been accounted for on the sheet

Personalities are formed from the lives people lead, and Deimos can't remember the one he had.

Deimos woke up falling free from a pod aboard a ship, a disorienting and frightening enough experience. Yet when his memories never returned, Deimos was left a shell of who he once was. Healers revealed that his mind was cut and butchered. His self mangled and peeled away. Whoever did this to him likely didn't expect him to ever come to himself again. Only divine intervention could explain how he's able to think clearly for the first time since whatever caused the damage in the first place. But what kind of divine intervention...?

This was the only experience Deimos had to form his sense of self around initially, but something else crept itself into his mind. One other piece of him that couldn't be cut out or butchered. Plagued by constant thoughts of murder and gore, Deimos only has these experiences to try to put back any semblance of a person he can.

As a result, Deimos is always uncertain of his behaviors. He's hesitant in what he does, and he acts mostly on a singular thought: to combat the evil in his head with good. This leads Deimos to often being overly agreeable with others. While he doesn't fear conflict, he shies from it. Tries to find ways to persuade, maybe even deceive, his way out of a situation that could lead to danger. Or worse - violence. This can make Deimos seem almost weak, like a pushover, in his pursuit of good.

Deimos is far from weak, however. While his mind may struggle to stay solid, his resolution is not. Once a choice is made, typically following that thought process of doing good, Deimos can be determined to see it through. Almost doggedly so. It almost becomes a core belief that to complete an act of goodness he can wash the sins from his mind.

Because his mind is stained with sins too dark to speak of. Visions constantly driving his blade towards the lives of innocents. Even a butler that appears to remind him that his past is bloody and his future even bloodier. Deimos would like to say the darkness never wins, but it does too often. He only directs it, killing in the name of good. Because that justifies the evil he does if it brings a greater good, yes? He likes to think so.

So he plays at what he thinks is a person. He makes himself empty on the inside, while his words are filled with persuasions and deceptions he doesn't quite believe. Yet he weaves words so beautifully magic spills from his lips. It comes so naturally that he knows this magic must have been his before losing his memory, but now he can only play at what he thinks a normal tiefling bard would do. His words full of more hope than he has inside. All he can do is take a step forward each day, and pray he finds a way to end the urges before they take him entirely.

LOG SAMPLE HERE note - this is an AU where two dark urges are companions. voice is accurate and canonpoint the same, but content does not reflect canon. TRIGGER WARNINGS: discussions and descriptions of blood, gore, and mild necrophiliac thoughts.

1 Duellist's Prerogative - magic weapon that deals necrotic damage and allows user to attack three times in a turn
1 Knife of the Undermountain King - magic weapon that basically makes for more deadly attacks
2 Hand Crossbows - both magical with one causing extra fire damage
1 Studded Leather Armor + 2 - just stronger than normal armor
1 Disintigrating Night Walkers - allows him to misty step (teleport 30ft that he can see) once a day
1 Wondrous Gloves - gloves that give extra bardic inspiration
1 Earring (helmet) of Arcane Acuity - helmet that after attacking with a weapon, wearer makes stronger magical attacks next turn
2 Killer's Sweetheart Ring and Regeneration Ring - rings that help him hit more accurately and regenerate a small amount of health
3 Surgeon's Subjugation Necklace - cause paralysis on a critical hit once a day
3 Potions of Healing - very minor healing potions
1 Scroll of Revivify - revive dead friend
4 Rations - enough for a day each
1 Volo's ersatz eye - allows to see invisible