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[bhaalyn]

Deimos / The Dark Urge

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[bhaalyn]

You act like you're so old. You may still yet find your love.

And likely. My songs come to me at odd times. Mostly when I need them most.

Has my night time playing been bothering you?

[matermali]

Not at all. It is a welcome change. If you do decide to write such a love song, it ought to be sad.

I would wager that I am yet older than you, but I shall at least grow no older. Any further years have been banished to this realm alone. A jest in place of a life.

[bhaalyn]

Sad ones are all I seem to know.

I hate to pry... but you're very clearly different from the others. I think you know me in a way most wouldn't.

But if it's not too much... why?

[matermali]

Why am I different?

[bhaalyn]

Yes. Exactly.

[matermali]

I could not give any one reason. I could never answer her. I knew Night before Day was born, yet I remain no more than a blade of grass. I am not human, if that is your curiosity.

I know what it means to live multiple lives, and what it means to take them. I would only wish to prevent you from succumbing to the darker self as I once did.

[bhaalyn]

I see.

Thank you for your honesty. And your aid. I think so few come close to understanding. But you seem to. And you don't hate me for it still.

It does provide a certain level of hope.

[matermali]

I have yet to be of any true aid, but if understanding can provide any solace, then I am glad for it. It is all I wished for in my other life.

Perhaps you need only to find your Phobos to unlock the rest.